Grey's Anatomy and i do not mix. at all. the brooding indie music, Meredith's indecisiveness, and McDreamy. ugh! i want everyone to be happy but there's always drama or some Cohen song playing in the background to bring the tears out. it's Imogen Heap and the OC all over again. for once, i'd lke to watch a show with a kick-ass soundtrack that wasn't sad, depressing, or anything negative.
well then.
maybe this says something about my music taste.
i do like 90's emo like Braid, Jawbreaker... oh god. i'm the sad one. oh no.

if there was a way i  could sync up blogger with tumblr, i would have never fallen behind. my main "blog" is my tumblog and i loooove it. i've had a tumblr for five-ish years now, and i run about twenty blogs through one email. they range from subject-specific blogs, to rant blogs. one blog i created back in high school is fashioned after bob dylan. i used one of his many aliases as the url, and the blog title was from a song of his. i thought it was pretty clever, but looking back on it..... i bitched a lot about things that didn't matter.

i'm not even sure when these were due, but boy was i slacking. these past couple of weeks have been slack fests, but i'm freaking exhausted. this makes no sense to me. i just want to hurry up and graduate and move the heck on. maybe. i'm still unsure on my career path. law school is starting to look like a pipe dream of sorts, and i sort of don't have a back up. computer science would be fun, but my boyfriend/boothang has a degree in that. life needs to be a bit easier, maybe. possibly?

l.i.f.e.g.o.e.s.o.n.

isn't that what they say? no matter what happens, you move on. you go on. it's like driving for the first time and you hit a pothole. you can either pull over on the side of the road and give up, or you ca go on, knowing there's more pot holes.
the first one is always the hardest. i just reeeeaaaaaalllllllyy want to get over this first one so i can move on and get happy again.

i really hate it when i know there's something wrong, something going on, and no one tells me. seriously, if i keep bringing the subject matter up, then i might have an idea of it. you might as well tell me and get it over with. buuhhhh people are stupid and feelings are stupid and i just want to sleep for forever.